I awoke at 0145 from a weird dream: me backing a boat into a lake, between the edge of a ramp and a motorhome. Very strange, but I WAS successful!

As I was reading a friend’s blog, I realized that I hadn’t blogged myself lately.

Over the past few days, I have been reading my aforementioned friend’s blog and noticed that a majority of his blog consists of Scriptures he finds inspirational and little about his own personal life. At first, I was somewhat disappointed (I love reading about what people think and their own testimonies), but then realized that this was HIS blog, not mine! In contrast, my blog rarely if ever has Scripture texts and is mostly my own musings about life in general.

On the EARLY drive (0430) to work this morning (I figured that I might as well get ready for work and drive on in, read a while and “psych” myself for the workday!), I wondered why I had been comparing my blog to someone else’s, wondering if perhaps, he was more spiritual than me (due to all of the Scriptural texts!). But then, I realized that I really SHOULDN’T be comparing myself to another human. Instead, I should be focussed on MY heart and my OWN relationship with God. I have found that I think about God alot in regards to what I know how He loves me and has saved me. I occasionally read the Bible (which I think stems from my days in the ICOC sect when reading was a prerequisite for salvation) and know what God expects of me. I’ve been attending Recovery for four weeks this Thursday and can only hope and pray that I can continue to do so without becoming exasperated with myself.

And I have run out of things to write! God bless!